Do you know how hard it is to let go of your loved ones? If you do, good for you. I'm facing so much difficulty in accepting situations nowadays. & I don't like that feeling. It makes me sick. I tried to spent my everyday life by doing something that could distract me from thinking. But then every night I realise how hard it is to forget things when I know that I have to face it now&then.
About three days ago, I called Sarah. She said that she will move to Sabah next year. She'll be staying there for two years maybe. Yes, I cied. But it took a very long time for me to cry. You know why? Because at first, I thought it wouldn't be that hard. Then I went and tell my mother about it. A few minutes later, I cried because I realise it would very hard to be away from a friend whom you really love. Plus, she's moving to Borneo Island. That is damn far. I know she wouldn't want to go there. But she had to.
After that, I spent my time thinking about it over and over again. I said to myself that I have to move on. It will be only 2 years period then I'll be studying in Universities and I'll find new friends. But yes, it is still hard for me. Next year, Aiman is not going to be there with me too. He's working everyday while waiting for his result. So it's impossible for him to meet me everytime. That makes me very very sad. Thank God I still have Nurul, Hanna, Aqilah&Fit. But then, how do I know that they would never leave?
All I want for next year is just to have a friend by my side. I hope that they will stay with me there. But if they don't, then I'll just have to live my life. It seems simple&easy. But trust me, its definitely not.